On the two year ‘anniversary date’ of a very difficult decision I had to make to cut Larry out of my life, I felt the need to share these thoughts with any of you who may also be struggling with this in any of your relationships.
Sometimes we allow the wrong people to stay in our life because we have a history with them, sometimes because we don’t want to hurt their feelings by telling them the truth, sometimes we want them in our life, but we just aren’t willing to admit that they no longer fit there. Choosing to let those people go and making changes like that are hard. But what’s also hard is going through life with people and things that are constantly dragging you down. Life is short enough without extra baggage. It’s unhealthy to be miserable all the time, and you’re cheating those who genuinely want to be in your life (those who love the REAL YOU) out of their deserved time with you by wasting it on someone who isn’t meant to be there or who just isn’t there for the right reasons. As hard as it may be, you’re doing yourself a favor, and in turn, you’re doing them a favor as well. Life’s about changing, nothing ever stays the same. The past couple years have certainly been eye-opening ones….I’ve spent them really watching and studying people and I’ve learned alot about others as well as about myself. I’ve reconnected with friends, disconnected with ‘friends’….given second chances and patched up things that at the time seemed unfixable, but just needed some time for healing. I’m continuing to make changes to make myself happy and healthy. In doing so, I’ve had to omit some things I once loved and to sacrifice some people from my circle who didn’t have my best interest at heart. I was realizing I sometimes neglect my own feelings a bit in favor of saving others and I really need to improve on that. I tend to shut down and disconnect because I’m so busy helping everyone else that I often forget to take care of myself. So, I’ve been re-evaluating my relationships & culling my inner circle a bit. If I no longer speak to you or reach out to you, please don’t be offended. I’m not seeking out people to hurt them. I’m simply choosing to spend my time with those I am closest to, those I fully trust & who will defend me in my absence, those I have things in common with, those who have supported my decisions & proven they’re here for both the right reasons and the long haul, or those who, like me, just want to do what they have to do to stay happy, even if that means sticking with a very small group of people. Enjoying life while I’m still here, in the best and most healthy way I know how with those I treasure most. No extra stuff or unnecessary people that may steal any more precious time from my life. You decide how your life flows by who and what you invite in. Choose wisely. What you allow is what will continue.
Ramblings of a Blonde Brunette 